"I'll never tell....."

“I’ll never tell…..”

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When I was 5 years old or younger, I don’t remember exactly when.

Somehow I got involved in an innocent game, that was hosted by a neighborhood teenage girl, who appeared to be 13 or 14.

An innocent game that turned somewhat more than PG13.

I was in a room with other children of my age (boys and girls).

I only remember everyone had to take turns to show their private parts.

No one touched anyone.

The teenage girl used a tickler to tickle each of us at our turn.

Since that day-

I blamed and shamed myself.

I felt powerless.

I felt that the world was not safe.

I hated wearing skirts.

This became the reason I shut down my body.

This became the reason I believed I was not good enough.

This became the reason I didn’t believe that I deserved to be loved or cherished..

Because….

I didn’t remember how I got there.

I didn’t trust that I could protect myself.

I didn’t remember their faces.

I had to keep the secret.

“You can never tell,”
she said.

Did it really happen?

I asked myself.

My intuition told me I must FORGIVE myself to start healing.

So I did, but not until recently.

I FORGAVE the teenage girl because she was abused 100 times WORSE than what she did to us.

Forgiveness will set you free.

Agree?

~ Love you more ❤️

Kolline

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